Feb 032010
 

In a message dated 02/03/10 16:38:20 GMT Standard Time

Mistress

i would imagine alot of trust would be require to even tell the partner of such things, is it wrong that i’m having fantasies about being dressed as a woman sucking cocks and drinking cum? i don’t even find men remotely atractive, but the idea is ticking all the right boxes in my head.

slave p

No it isn’t wrong at all – the fantasy world of BDSM allows us to do things that in everyday life we find repulsive. The scenes are particularly exciting and erotic if it is something you are ordered to do for your Mistress. The lengths a sub/slave will go to for Mistress demonstrates his devotion and needs to be understood as a separate part of life. Cross dressing – wanting to feel the silky material, stockings and panties next to your skin does not mean that you need to rush out and book a sex change operation….. it means that your mind is open enough to enjoy different experiences in life. The same applies to wanting to take a mans cock for your Mistress knowing how much she enjoys ‘forcing’ you to do it while she watches. I have had slaves do things that are totally beyond comprehension but as a slave they feel compelled to do as ordered.

Mistress Beth

Feb 032010
 

Throughout my adult life, I have had extensive BDSM experiences with several partners and mistresses, constantly having my boundaries stretched and extended. My early yearnings and urges initially started with spanking, corporal punishment and bondage, but over the years and through extensive play, I would have urges in other aspects of the scene. I would recieve CBT, ballbusting, watersports, hot wax etc; One aspect that suprised me though was how aroused I would become when I was subjected to humiliation. These feelings had grown stronger and stronger, to the point were the need for humiliation had over-taken the other aspects of BDSM that I had endulged in previously. My partner was always willing to ‘play’, but I found that I was topping from the bottom and therefore self managing our sessions. This led me to seek professional Mistresses who would control the activities.
After several years and after visiting a number of Mistresses, I came accross the site of Mistress Beth, of course I scanned the photos, her interests and the stories on her pages. I was very pleased to discover that this Lady was an expert in humiliating slaves, and after reading a story of her making a male slave pleasure another male slave with his mouth, led me to be extremely aroused. This was a bazaar experience for me as I am completely straight and in no way do I find men attractive or have bi leanings. I kept revisiting the site hoping that it was a temporary urge, but each time I had the most solid of erections that I knew that I would have to visit Mistress Beth to see if she was powerful enough to make me do her bidding and force me to go against all my natural sexuality.
On meeting Mistress Beth, I was taken to her cellar. What a place that is, two rooms filled with all sorts of equipment that makes the most experienced of slaves quake with anticipation. The ambience of the surroundings certainly makes you feel most vulnerable and susceptable to Mistress’s mischievous yet compassionate eyes. Mistress Beth toyed with me, teasing my erection and my plight. I was given some CBT and was subjected to bondage. Mistress is very astute and soon worked out that I was more responsive to humiliation. I was then tied on a raised bed were my anus was entered by Mistress’s toys and one in my mouth, I was made to suck on the dildo as she told me how next time I would be made to suck a real cock. I was constantly reminded of this as Mistress kindly pleasured me and I felt that she was enjoying my predicament further by describing in detail what I would have to do with another mans penis. I had a very powerful orgasm, Mistress released me and we had an informal assessment of how the session went. Mistress decided that I was more than ready to step up my humiliation and progress to the next stage of experiencing forced bi. Over the next few weeks, I thought of little else, how a Lady can make me cross my natural sexuality. I attempted to look at pictures and stories of men on men to test my sexuality, but of course me being straight it did nothing for me, I would then at other times think of what Mistress Beth was going to make me endure and I would respond by obtaining a powerful erection. This made me make up my mind and contact Mistress again. Due to work commitments and the availibility of Mistress, I had to make an appointment for the following week, but alas, I got the dreaded swine flu and had no option but to cancel our appointment, I had attempted to rearrange but Mistress was on a well earned and deserved holiday. The urges got so powerful and through the confidence that was given to me by Mistress Beth, I plucked up the courage to discuss with my partner what her thought were of a forced bi scenario. I was shocked at how quickly she embraced the idea, and within weeks, she was so enthusiastic, that I found that I was no longer topping our sex play and that she discovered in herself a natural dominance and thrived on my humiliation. She bought strap ons and used them on me with vigour, taunting me how she was going to make me suck real cock and how i would have to watch as she fucked him after I got him aroused for her. On her instruction, I was made to join a website and find her a man to play with. I now live a cuckold lifestyle, with me having to suck all of her studs cock ready for her, and I have to clean up the cum with my tongue afterwards, I have to put on the condoms for them and she makes me watch has she gains her pleasure from the other men. She even forces me to take viagra so she can taunt me if I get aroused. I am never allowed to cum until at least the next morning and even then I must ask her permission.
I know this lifestyle is not to everyones taste, but it has brought us very close together and this is all thanks to Mistress Beth giving me the confidence and strength to unleash this never previously considered yet powerful aspect of my partners urges.
I am eternally grateful to Mistress Beth and never thought I would become a lifestyle sub particularly with my partner of several years.