Sub Space

Sub space is that state of mind and body that a sub/slave is in during a deeply involved play scene. Sub space for many is a way of separating their mind and body from their environment as the experience is processed. Sub space is a very vulnerable place to be regardless whether there is any physical danger or not and both sub/slave, Mistress/Master have to be aware of this.

Sub space is very similar to other trance like states which are practised under different names:- prayer, mediation, hypnosis or regression. Prayer? This may be a strange one to include when talking of trance like conditions, but prayer is the focusing of thought on a single point, individual or idea. Prayer is often accompanied by patterned behaviour or repeated actions before and during prayer. When you do a task over and over again you may find yourself singing or humming, the mind and body relaxes and in both of these instances a calmness and peace has been reached which is ‘space’.

Sub space is different for everyone, some may have triggers that start the process off i.e. seeing the equipment laid out, walking into the dungeon, the Mistresses tone of voice, a look, a whole plethora of things can start the whole process.

I am not going into long explanations about the different types of adrenaline or endorphins, it is enough for us to know that it is these two natural occurring chemicals that cause the ‘high’ or ‘sub space’. From this point on I can only speak of my own sub space and the stages I go through, but from having read other slaves experiences the first few steps seems to be common to all of us. The journey into subspace I believe is defined in stages.

stage 1

When I first contact the Mistress to request a session, stage 1 starts, the apprehension, the anticipation and a sense of fear of what She may have in store for me. The tension is usually built and enforced with a few exchanges of e mail.

In order not to detract from the experience to come I usually lock myself in a CB6000. No release until the Mistress removes the lock.

stage 2

On the day in question my journey of just over one hour gives me plenty of time for my overactive mind to try to pre-empt what might happen in the coming hours. Believe me I have never succeeded in out thinking Mistress, she is always several steps ahead of me no matter what I might imagine

This for me is stage 2 – this is when the adrenaline is coursing through my body creating the light headedness and a few butterflies as I enter her domain and close the door, my only escape behind me.

stage 3

Whatever comes next is beyond my control now, my freedom of choice left outside that closed door. I breath slowly and deeply waiting expectantly for the first touch of The Mistress

Whatever She chooses doesn’t really make a difference to me. The moment She touches me I breathe out slowly and an inner calmness takes over. The best way to describe the feeling is that of resignation – whatever the Mistress wants to do is fine – She has total control of my mind, body and soul.

For me this is stage 3 and its from this point on that I lose all sense of time, all sense of life outside the dungeon – the only thing I am aware of is the Mistresses presence and occasionally when permitted Her voice if She chooses to say something, which sometimes She does, very close to my ear, whether it be an endearment or reassurance, Her breath on my skin flows into my very being, I take that as part of Her and take it into the next stage of my journey. Always I am rewarded with the scent of her perfume.

stage 4

The session is usually well under way and pushes me to the next stage – number 4. This is where I can no longer speak, if the Mistress were to speak to me I am often unable to answer apart from a grunt or a movement of a finger. From this point on the session gets harder, my breathing changes, each touch each sensation makes me breathe more deeply inwards, another touch and my breath is still slowly releasing. I think for every sensation I breathe in and out once. I cannot hear anymore, all sound has gone, now my mind and body are disconnected but yet the connection between Mistress and myself is so intense it almost hurts, I can’t explain how, it just does!

The endorphins have well and truly kicked in and these mixing with the adrenaline creates the bodies natural barbiturate. Because of my inability to vocalise the Mistress watches the body language with extreme care, by watching carefully She will see the tell tale signs of sub space taking over completely.

For me I know of nothing, I am not aware anymore of what is happening, all sense of being has gone, I am in my comfort zone in peace and harmony and wrapped in a glowing warmth.

Stage 5 is complete

Later I come round feeling euphoric, tipsy, giggly and very very happy often feeling cold – it can take some time before I can speak properly or even move, but as soon as I am able to co-ordinate my limbs I drink plenty of water or a tea as the thirst can sometimes be incredible.

The floating feeling and euphoria lasts well into the next 24 – 36 hours, happiness and mood is at its best after sub space, but, as with anything there is a down side and this is known as ‘sub drop‘.

Not all my own words sadly but thanks to a website I found which in all honesty apart from a few small individualisation’s describes my experience so well

http://www.wolfshead.org.uk/slave/index1.htm

I can and do assure all of you out there I never felt this more than in the session entitled

Complete submission…… well almost!!!!

But… in looking back each session really has taken me to this place, just perhaps not with such force and determination

Mistress assures me it is her belief I may have visited several times, who am I to argue?

My first session the unknown, the uncertainty, the fear resulted in an enormous adrenaline high, a massive buzz even better than motorcycle racing

This was even surpassed in my first big deep sensory depravation session such a strange out of body experience my inexperience could not allow me to fathom out exactly what was going on

until complete submission, where I described myself as giving in

Now looking back in the cold light of day and finding myself searching for the understanding of the feelings I experience I now believe perhaps I understand just a little of what might be going on

I feel extremely fortunate to have found the Mistress and to have connected so quickly to enable each session to allow this to occur. It not always the same feeling each time, I suppose the mix of endorphins and adrenaline is different each time.

It has been described as any combination of a floating feeling, an out of body experience and even as deep as total and complete relaxation. Always it comes with an acceptance of the inevitable

Mistress I thank you for introducing me to this feeling of ultimate euphoria